Ok, so the last post was a little premature. Things are definitely not going better. I'm in and out of the hospital, with a PIC line (more permanent IV that runs from my arm to my chest) and home health care. I have a dresser full of IV bags, saline locks and IV tubing, a fridge full of medication, a nurse that comes on Tuesdays and the amazing ability to still feel unbelievably sick day after day. I can't work, I can't really go anywhere (except the hospital or clinic), I can't really do anything (this is the second time in the past month I've even had the energy to get online for five minutes) and I can't really bear to think about anything other than the present day. In other words, without the kind words, prayers and amazing help from family and friends, I'm not sure I'd even make it through this. Hyperemesis stinks.
The silver lining to all of this -- and it really is more of a sparkling platinum lining -- is despite how bad I feel, baby is just fine and has really great chances of being as healthy as can be. We've had one ultrasound already and heard the heartbeat yesterday (148 bpm). In four weeks we'll get another ultrasound, at about 15 weeks, and hopefully Jason can post some photos then. Knowing Ray is healthy gives me the hope I need to struggle through this. When some days become almost unbearable, I look at his/her little photo and dream about February. It will all be worth it....just don't ask me about future babies!
Please keep Ray in your thoughts and prayers. I'm losing weight, but thankfully the little goomer is pretty much a parasite and taking everything it needs from my body. Let's hope things ease up in a couple weeks and my hormones level out.
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